My New Year's Wish is to Live Again

January 03, 2014





Happy New Year to all of you! It’s been ages since I thought of writing some new year’s wish or you might want to consider it as a resolution (I don’t remember when I stopped writing them actually). 

It’s nice to look back what exactly happened for the last 365 days whether good or bad.

2013 was the year when my father passed. The start of 2013 was really tough for me and my family from emotional, psychological and financial responsibilities. All these I was able to overcome and I honestly don’t know how I did it! The only thing I remembered was staying strong all through these with help from my friends and family too.

I noticed too that while I age, I became impatient on things like waiting to be served in a restaurant, checking in a hotel, talking to my sisters or even waiting on queue while at the airport. I would remember getting irritated when someone asks me how to save a facebook photo on his mobile phone when I have repeatedly showed him how. 

I don’t have my usual zest or appetite for life. I forgot to appreciate even the smallest things when I should have. Perhaps it was the fear or losing my dad or the mounting stress I had to deal in many aspects of my life such as work, family or even life in general that I forgot to ask help. Feels like I was barely breathing just to exist. I felt lost like a kid once more. And just like that—my many years of acquired patience had gone out of the window.

I failed to remember the beautiful life that I have, friends who love me dearly and family whom I can turn to whenever my world comes crushing. I was so busy breeding this loneliness in my heart while trying to resolve them on my own. And this loneliness has manifested in a lot of ways—losing my patience, disregard for people by not trying to talk when I can, or simply just stopped caring.

This year, I hope to be more appreciative, caring, patient and kind. I will look past people and the burden each one carries. I will bring happiness into my life and share it to many people as I can. I shall be the bearer of good vibes to everyone I meet! 

I am going to start living again. 

Have you thought about your new year’s wishes?

Love,

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