Dear You,
I am not sure how you can take this but let me tell you this now: In few years time, you will be okay. And I mean not grand okay- but you will have a time of your life.
You will struggle with self-esteem as you grow up but will soon overcome it. When you enter university, a boy who developed liking in you shall try to pursue you, hold your hand, kiss you on your cheek and will be a stranger later on. You will be jealous and broken but all you will do is scribble in your journal how hurt you are and never speak to him again until you were in the same trip going to the city.
University days shall pass without you having a boyfriend (yes, you shall be single till you graduate) but another geeky boy shall profess his love to you complete with flowers, love letters and home visits. But then you will realize you still like the first boy and so you will just end up as friends, nothing more nothing less.