Prayers For My Dad
February 24, 2013 |
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Happy Sunday beautiful people!
First of all, I'm truly sorry for being on a hiatus once again. No, I didn't give up on blogging. I was entangled in some family issues concerning my dad who was recently diagnosed with esophageal mass. After 10 days of confinement in a Manila hospital, I was so busy running errands making sure he gets the best decisions concerning his latest ordeal.
First of all, I'm truly sorry for being on a hiatus once again. No, I didn't give up on blogging. I was entangled in some family issues concerning my dad who was recently diagnosed with esophageal mass. After 10 days of confinement in a Manila hospital, I was so busy running errands making sure he gets the best decisions concerning his latest ordeal.
You see-- I lost my mom in 2005, so suddenly that I came home seeing her already lifeless body, inside that slightly odd-looking casket. I loved my mom so deeply that it took me a while to forgive myself for not coming home sooner. I just started a new job back then and I was concerned with repercussions of leaving everything just like that--- that I realized I lost the chance to see mom alive for the last time.
For many nights, I cried buckets and even after 5 years or so, I still find myself crying whenever I share this experience to my friends. I know it was guilt which haunted me for the longest time. I also had problems of forgiving myself because I chose one thing which is made of rubber versus the one which was made of glass.
For many nights, I cried buckets and even after 5 years or so, I still find myself crying whenever I share this experience to my friends. I know it was guilt which haunted me for the longest time. I also had problems of forgiving myself because I chose one thing which is made of rubber versus the one which was made of glass.
I cannot say that I have fully forgiven myself because every time I think about it, I still feel that excruciating pain in my heart, only this time, it isn't as painful as before. The pain became manageable and I pray and hope to wake up one day all this pain will disappear. I know in time I will be kinder, more forgiving and less guilty of what happened.
It was for the same reason that when my dad informed me he was feeling sick that I gave my full attention to him, made sacrifices for my job and only hoped for the best. The good news is that my dad is going to be operated soon to remove the mass on his esophagus preventing him from eating any solid food for sometime. I can only pray that his operation goes well.
I truly believe in the power of prayers. I know God can hear all of us but isn't it great if more people would pray for our own personal wishes and perhaps who knows, the sound of these prayers may be louder that He will help us overcome our own personal challenges, right? I would often reach out to my friend Tin who is a Christian to aide me in my prayers when I wish for something in my life to happen. I did the same to her and to my many friends who told me they will pray for my dad too.
And so my dear readers and friends, if possibly, I want to ask this small favor from you too. Whatever your religion is, I ask for your help in praying for my dad's speedy recovery. That he may be safe and sound after the operation so he can live longer to be with us. I know if there would be prayer warriors for my dad that all the angels in the heaven will connive and send the message to God that he is a good man despite his shortcomings.
I will forever be grateful if you secretly pray for this man-- my dad that he be well. I thank you in advance for these prayers. You may not know him but I can assure you he did a great job in raising us all 5 kids.
In Jesus name, AMEN.
Love,
Miss J
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I will include your father in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteBless you and your family!
Thanks a lot! Appreciate it. Thanks for visiting:)
DeleteHi Jolz! Will always be here to pray for you and your dad.
ReplyDeleteGod's love and strength will always see us through.
Hugs and kisses to you ateng! I miss you. Beyond words. ♥
Hey Madam Kristeyn-- thanks for being one of my prayer warriors as always. Hope to see you soon too! I miss our endless chikas and tawanan. I'll see you soon! Mwah mwah:)
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